Monday, November 15, 2004
craps.
ytd i tot abt de past abt me n. u noe. cuz she sms me lately la. freak lohz. i already starting to get use to de life without her. she lehz. sms me fer wat. waste. den i keep telling myself to hate her. den i watched ren wo ao you. "in the past, all u thought of was urself, are u abit too selfish le." yesh. i guess i am selfish. have i tot of her feeling. if she iz happy wif me, she wun feel dat wae ritez. sho. de onli answer i can find fer de break up iz i'm useless. or izit juz an excuse. de reason why i dun wana stead iz cause. i dun wana treat my next as a sub. tho i may sae i hate her. she was once de girl i lurved de most, i totally gave myself. maybe still nt enuff. "itz not because we dun lurve each other le. if we get back together. will we stil be happy" i guess he iz right. so wat if i get back wif nor. so wat. itz iz pointless. i wun give her happiness. "u nvr hurt me, actually iz i hurt u" my quote. i think iz de other wae round. iz me who iz wrong. i guess we cnt even be friends. dat's life.
[juz crapping]
5:54 PM